This is really happening. I keep thinking about it and how insane it is that I am actually going to do this. Then there's the fact that my father-in-law offered to sweeten the deal by doubling my reward IF I make it the entire year. How can I fail??? That's over $700!
At the same time, how can I succeed? Well, that is what I am trying to figure out. Sharpen the axe in preparation for the job. I had the opportunitity to go the movie theater but I vetoed it because it would likely end with me eating pretzels with cheese. Even though the challenge hasn't started yet, I don't want to go on a week-long binge in desperation.
No, this is going to take an all-new way of thinking. A new way of being. All of these defaults I've set up in my mind - oh, I can't say no when it's right in front of me, oh, it's okay because today is a special day - none of that is going to matter anymore. I'm going to have to find a way to say no.
I think one of the best ways I'll succeed at this is by not focusing too much on what I can't have. It's true that in a way this goal requires abstinance, but I'd rather think of it in terms of abundance. What new foods will I discover along the way? What new skills will I build?
What am I going to do when I'm depressed? Because there will be days that I am depressed. I'll experience anxiety and want to cram a cheeseburger down my throat. I might tell myself that my goals don't matter. But I have to find a way to reach myself even during those times. Maybe I will record a pep talk when I am having a really good day. Or write a message to myself, to be read during the hard times. I will have to think about this.
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